Betsy FitzgeraldBetsy Fitzgerald is an award-winning author who lives and writes in Groton, Massachusetts. Her first Phred Rivers novel, October Run, is available from Amazon.com, BarnesandNoble.com, and brick and mortar bookstores everywhere. The next Phred Rivers adventure is in the works.

`Lyrically written' and `page turner' aren't adjectives that are often used together to describe a single novel, but October Run is both. Betsy Fitzgerald had better have a sequel in the works, because I want to follow Phred on more adventures." -- Charlotte Libov, award-winning journalist and author.

"... I was captivated and simply could not put it down! ... Just when I thought I knew what was next- TWIST! Another adventure! I found myself really connecting with all of the characters and wanting to learn more. I am very eager to pick up the next Phred adventure and cannot wait to read more work by Betsy Fitzgerald. Highly recommended!" -- Amazon Review by A. Bouchard of Boston

"If you like Stephanie Plum (Janet Evanovich), you'll love Phred Rivers... You'll be waiting for the next installment by the time you get half-way through this book... you'll want to know more about these damaged and vulnerable people... " -- Amazon reader review

Betsy's blog: Life Between the Lines

Mothers Aren’t Mush

I get as verklempt as the next mother but Mother’s Day mushiness is  a crime against us all.  We (yes using the royal we here) are not about the ubiquitous pastel potted plants. I will miss my mother forever. I’m hoping to be a grandmother someday. I’m not immune to the idea of a morning when I get to sleep in and have coffee handed to me.

But motherhood is not mush. It’s not for wimps. Here’s some of my mothering memories:

  1. Watching Abi fly sideways off a horse at a canter, scooping her up and driving her while she vomited from the pain, to Yale-New Haven ER. Six hours, broken elbow treated.
  2. Rounds of ear infections that drew me closer to my pediatrician and farther away from any natural sleep pattern.
  3. Slo-mo horror of seeing Em kick at a glass door and seeing the blood spill from the cut.
  4. Sitting for one very long Good Friday with Buttercup, Em’s hamster, as the tiny golden animal died and we read Treasure Island to her.
  5. Trying to get out the door because we had a chance to meet President Clinton and being stopped dead when Abi dropped a glass and cut her hand. Rushing through ER and smiling as the President shook hands with my bandaged daughter.
  6. Searching out the closest urgent care for Abi who had developed a red, weeping eye infection on vacation. I doled out dark glasses and antibiotics along with the sunscreen that week.
  7. Calling the Fire Department to help untangle Abi’s toes from the gears of an exercise bicycle.
  8. Waking up to a text message from London, Abi’s new hometown, that she had just been admitted to hospital and was recovering but there was blood everywhere. Booking a Virgin flight and spending two weeks shuttling her back and forth to get surgical dressing changed.
  9. Sitting at Em’s bedside for 6 days last month as she recovered from surgery at Beth Israel in Manhattan and cried from the pain of more than 50 surgical sutures.
  10. Realizing that I will never retire.

And that’s fine with me.

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Bandaged and happy, Abi met President Clinton

I know my list pales in comparison to so many mothers, friends, and worldwide. It is a day to be grateful for the strength that carries us on. I’m also grateful that I got the life opportunity to be Em and Abi’s mother.

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Name That Pup

I never know what I’m going to get back when I take my dog to the groomer. Every two months, we take him to be clipped (easy to remember since I’m on the same schedule with my salon). At two months of growth, his wiry, curly hair has twined itself into small knots and his eyes peer out from under a floppy fringe. He looks like he’s wearing baggy polar fleece. This, despite the fact that he gets a soothing oatmeal soak every week or so in the kitchen sink.

It’s not just that he comes home shorn. He literally looks like a different dog. When we first met him at the MSPCA Nevins Farm adoption center, he was clipped but with a sort of bearded look. The adoption papers called him a poodle-spaniel.  Yes, in formal terms, that would be a Cockapoo My husband cringes when I suggest that we might be dog-parents to a canine with an unabashedly silly name. Our vet decided our dog was perhaps a Lhasa Apso, sort of. We have tended in that direction.

No one knows what he really is since he was found as a stray on the streets of Haverill. The dog catchers (canine control officers) named him Waffles. We kept the name, but the spaniel poodle thing has been hard to fathom. Mostly we let him get shaggy and we can forget about it.

Then he comes back from the groomer.  The wiry curly hair is shorn. Big brown spaniel eyes stare at us as if he’s surprised too. People pay huge amounts of money for all the cross-breeds that have become trendy.  I just saw a posting, on Facebook of course, of a Pomsky. It was a Pomeranian-Husky cross–a petite dog with a tiny pointed face and husky black and white coloring and fur. I’ve personally met a Yorkipoo (Yorkshire and Poodle).

You be the judge …. shaggy and shorn.  Cockapoo? Lhasa?  Or just Waffles the wonder dog?

Shaggy dog, when we first met.

Shaggy dog, when we first met at MSPCA.

 

Shorn!

Shorn!

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Shorter than a Tweet

I’m craving color. It’s been long winter and spring has turned into one big tease. I’ve grabbed dozens of tulips from Trader Joe’s as I’m waiting for ours to breach. The easiest fix? Nail polish. It’s a double hit of satisfaction. Color and the names that say it all in less than 140 characters. Stories on my fingertips.

My sympathies to the men who don’t get to indulge. You could, but we aren’t quite there as a society are we? One delightful clerk at my favorite farm market sports groomed, manicured nails decorated with added bits of nail art. He’s definitely the exception. Last week it was metallic blue with white stripes. He smiles shyly when you compliment him.

Mani-pedi is a standard, nail salons ubiquitous and faux claws common. Not always the case. I didn’t have my first manicure until I was in my thirties. It didn’t become a habit until much later.  But my daughters and their friends made their first salon visits before they hit middle school. OPI now has a Mini Mouse 2013 collection of too-cute-for-words pinks.

Once I was hooked, I also was intrigued by the names. My all time favorite was a pink-hued red dubbed “Not a Waitress,” an OPI shade.   Apologies to waitresses, but I think you know what I mean. You can’t be scrubbing up the dishes when you have a fresh manicure. It’s a free pass to use your beautiful hands to gesture. Blow kisses. Stroke a cheek.  Nothing says freedom from housework like RED nails.

“Not a Waitress” became my color of choice during my dating years. I would book a late Friday appointment and enjoy the warm hand wrap and scented massage. As each brush stroke ran cool across my nails, tension drained away. I was ready for weekend fun.

nail-polishToday, I am as likely to do my own nails–it’s a life got too busy sort of thing. I play with other colors. When black polish hit as a trend, I went for that as well. There’s a certain don’t mess with me attitude that goes with ebony tips. And you can change at whim with a splash of remover.

I wonder if there are people who get paid to compose nail polish names? Wouldn’t that be a hoot? I’ve got a few ideas and they are shorter that a tweet. How about I Am a Parade pink and Freakin’ Fine red. I’m sure with practice, I could zing them out.

What would you name your favorite red? Pink? Blue?

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In the Tea Leaves

I have the confusing distinction of having two bylines, old and new. In my first marriage, I kept my name (Betsy Percoski). When my mother passed, I wanted to honor her and to mark the connection after she left for the world of spirits. I added Fitzgerald to my name, as a middle name. The three names became my legal moniker, but I began using simply Betsy Fitzgerald for my writing.

Gramma Fitzgerald

Bridget Reilly Fitzgerald

I loved my grandmother. Bridget Reilly Fitzgerald. People always remarked how much I looked like her; that is becoming more true with the years.  As a child, I coveted overnight visits with her. She would serve hermit cookies with afternoon tea. The biggest treat was when she read the tea leaves left in the bottom of the cup. “See,” she would say, “that’s a man on a horse.” I’d stare at the tiny brown stick-lines and tried to see what she saw. I wanted to be able to read the leaves when I grew up. What could be better than the magic of reading the future?

I never let go of the feeling that I belonged to the country where tea leaves were read, stories told and retold. Why not make it official? At the time one could apply for citizenship if you were second generation Irish. All I needed:

  • Birth, marriage and death certificate for your grandparent
  • Birth, marriage and death certificate for your parent of descent
  • Your own birth certificate.

By good fortune, I had the birth and death certificate for my grandmother. I knew that she had married in New Haven, Connecticut, though she lived in Manhattan at the time. I applied for a copy of her marriage certificate and my mother’s documents. As I accumulated the paperwork, I felt like I was taking a walk through my own history.

On my grandmother’s birth certificate from Ireland, her mother signed it with an X.  I had never thought about the fact that she would not have gone to school. From the marriage license, I learned that my grandfather had lived in the midwest. Didn’t know that. I only knew him as someone who had lived in Manhattan.

I assembled the documents and filled out the application. The website warned that it could take 6 months to a year for a response.  I sent it off with no great expectation. About 7 months later, on my way to work, I stopped at the Post Office to pick up a registered letter. I assumed it was official bad news, like maybe the IRS wanting to audit me.

Back in my car, I looked more closely at the Sender section. Irish Embassy. I drove the rest of the way to my office without touching the envelope. Once inside, I stopped by a friend’s desk.

“Open it.”

“What if…”  I meant what if Ireland didn’t want me? Odd as that seemed, it was a possibility. After all, here in the U.S. we don’t want people all the time. I fingered the envelope, picturing tea leaves clinging to the bottom. A woman walking …

She waited while I pulled the tab and slid out the papers.

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Citizen.

And so it is that my grandmother left Ireland at age 16 to find a new life; and I have returned.

 

 

 

postscript … my name underwent still one more change when I married for a second time, now Betsy Fitzgerald-Campbell but still and always Betsy Fitzgerald, writer.

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Bridging Brooklyn

In a winter weary park, purple crocus bloom. Bright sun makes a liar of the snow and slush of two days ago. For the past week, I’ve been an honorary Brooklynite. I arrived with my MINI Cooper crammed with groceries and work files–none of which have been put to use.

I came to help my daughter, Emma, through a surgery and into recovery. My other daughter, Abi, is here as well. We are in Em’s Brooklyn studio apartment. Three grown women, plus two cats, in about 250 square feet of space. Cubed it’s slightly better because of the ten-foot ceiling. I grew up in the country, spent most of my life in New Haven, and am now again in a rural New England town. I’m a long way from home.

Nothing is quite like Brooklyn. Not a Starbucks in sight … but a handful of high quality coffee shops within blocks. Words like “pour-over” are spoken with reverence. A French patisserie around the corner that makes chocolate almond croissants and petite sandwiches on baguettes. The food, well the food, is some of the best ever, in the least pretentious circumstances.  I’ve had perfect Bolognese sauce on rigatoni and authentic mole robed enchiladas, delivered hot to the apartment. One night we had fresh ground beef burger with pomme frites, from Chez Oskar.

Em has lived in her building since she wrapped up her degree at NYU. Brick, six-story, it’s early 1900′s sturdy. The marble floors were polished once, according to the older gentleman across the hall. He and his wife have lived here 45 years. There is a gentrification push on in the Clinton Hill neighborhood. It’s the hipsters, Em says with disdain. What was solidly middle-class Black and poor student is now upwardly mobile young whites–who are craving that great coffee and trendy restaurants. It’s definitely a win/lose situation. Rents are soaring. On-street parking has become a ritualized dance, circling and circling, u-turns and y-turns until a spot can be claimed.

My Brooklyn experience had been limited to much shorter visits and:

A Tree Grows in Brooklyn” by Betty Smith, read long ago. The coming of age story set at the turn of the twentieth century, can still be read for its classic characters. A poor family, alcoholic father, strict mother and wanton aunt are as colorful as the locals wandering Fulton Avenue today.

Em’s adventures for the past decade–she guides us all with her expert and sometimes stinging assessments of the neighborhood.  On the corner, there is the good deli and the bad deli. The latter is run by a lech who offers to “walk her home.” The former gives her advice about bad boyfriends. “He drank too much.”

300px-Manhattan_Bridge_2007Lastly, I know Brooklyn as part of family lore. My grandfather, Willard Harold Fitzgerald (Harry) was a young graduate in civil engineering from Columbia University when he worked on the Manhattan Bridge that rises with impunity at the end of Flatbush Avenue, then lands on lower Manhattan through a collanaded limestone arch. He was a supervisor on the construction when he took on a challenge from one of the crew. They challenged the young Harry to hoist iron. He injured himself, permanently wrenching muscles in his back. From then on he walked with a twisted frame. I’ve always thought of the Manhattan Bridge as “our bridge.” And less famous than its sister Brooklyn Bridge, the Manhattan is now the gateway to my daughter’s neighborhood.

ample hillsThe sun is shining on this March day. We’ll walk. And walk. I may stop in at the independent Greenlight Bookstore. I’m thinking that it’s the perfect place for a reading of my next book. And if we walk enough, there may be a stop at Ample Hills Ice Creamery, with it’s wonderful Walt Whitman quote and crazy creative concoctions. Soon enough, I’ll be back in the quiet glen in northeastern Massachusetts, for today Brooklyn rocks.

 

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Valentine’s Day? Get Real.

Joanne Chang-Myers' not-Valentine cookies

Joanne Chang-Myers’ not-Valentine cookies

I  admit, I’ve written about the joys of love and Valentine’s Day. I blogged about the delight of hand-crafted Valentine cards. I’m happy in love, married and hoping for red roses. BUT, it wasn’t always that way. So I was delighted when fabulous Joanne Chang-Myers, Flour Bakery, created what she called “sourheart” cookies. I think of them as “True Blues.” They tell the truth and well, blue speaks for itself.

Without naming names, I know of many women friends who are still looking for the right guy (or gal). They’ve kissed so many frogs that their lips look a bit green. Who is thinking of them on February 14th? Do they have to wait for Sadie Hawkins Day and take matters into their own hands? Or Leap Day…getting a chance every four years?  Why isn’t there a song, “I am woman and I hate Valentine’s Day?”

Even for couples, it’s a loaded day. Last year I was going to make a special dinner for my husband.  It was a weekday night, so I did what any self-respecting working woman would do:  stopped at Whole Foods.  I was just about the only woman in the prepared foods/bakery section as men scrambled about buying  hors d’oeuvre,  salmon en croute, truffle cake. And they all snatched cards on the way to the registers. Yes, those men and I all brought home nice dinners…thank you Whole Foods. How much nicer it would have been to just wait until a weekend, shop together, spend an afternoon cooking together and then a leisurely time over dinner.  Or, not a cook? That same time to take a drive to a special dining destination. We were doing the expected. Love shouldn’t be about expectation.  Anticipation, yes.

And back to the uncoupled. What would you want on your cookie from Flour Bakery? Here’s some other ideas from my single years (and heard from others):

  • Sayonara
  • Still a Frog
  • Had Better
  • Shrinkage?
  • Don’t Call

Got some ideas?  We’re PG-13 here …

And  me? Love my husband. I won’t be running through Whole Foods this year.  I may be stopping in at Flour Bakery. No sour hearts for me, but I love that they made them!

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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Following Atticus and Others

483230_446825448685234_1282435897_nDog Rescue. Human redemption. Journalism. Following Atticus by Tom Ryan was meant for me. I might not have found the book, had it not been for my friend Kate’s declaration that “I think you’d like it.”

The last book Kate recommended was Quiet — the Power of Introverts in a World That Can’t Stop Talking.  She was right that time as well.  Generally when a good friend recommends a book, I assume that she feels I will learn something or have something in my life confirmed. Kate’s suggestion also came just as I was breaking in the Kindle Fire HD I’d received as a Christmas present. My first download was October Run … well of course, right? My second was Following Atticus.

From the opening pages about small town politics and running the alternative paper, The Undertoad in Newburyport, Ryan had my attention. I’m a contributor and partner in The Groton Line, with my husband Art Campbell. It’s his baby but like any baby, I get caught up in the squalling, feeding and other demands of the paper (not Art). Tom Ryan’s descriptions of the underside of local politics rang true both for the Groton Line and for my first job out of college covering City Hall politics for the Westport News.

Small town journalism would only have held me for a chapter. Been there, done that. It was Ryan’s rescue of an aging mini-Schnauzer, Max, that caught me. Max comes… and goes. Atticus arrives and we’re off with Ryan climbing the 48 White Mountain peaks over 4,000 feet. Multiple times. Forced into quiet time with a case of the flu, I settled in with my Kindle and became an armchair mountaineer. Ryan’s struggles with blizzards are reflections of his own internal storms. He grapples the questions as big as the peaks–family, job, the meaning of life.

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Waffles, Followed

Atticus stole my heart. Though he was not a rescue pup like Waffles, my own black and white ball of fur and attitude, Atticus has a personality that cuts through the frozen terrain. And Ryan lets him shine. Atticus is also a mini-Schnauzer, like his predecessor, Max. Atticus came from a breeder named Paige. We come to know Paige as the voice of wisdom. Ryan turns to her again and again in long phone calls. He’s seeking guidance about Atticus but also grounding for himself. I found myself wishing for a Paige in my life–someone who provided the simple answers to the knotty questions. And only a phone call away.

Remarkably, Ryan finds answers in his quest. It’s a satisfying, lyrical read. Before I’d finished paging through the book on my Kindle, I’d flipped over to Facebook and found Following Atticus, with its 11,000 fans. And became one. And ditto with Twitter. I wasn’t ready for the journey to end.

From Kate to me to you, Follow Atticus. You may find a bit of yourself along the way.

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Small Towns and Big Stories

Harper Lee contributed to my moral compass like east defines the sunrise.  I read her Pulitzer Prize-winning “To Kill a Mockingbird” and saw the movie the year it came out–1963. Up until then, my mother had taken us to Disney movies. The black and white story rolled across the screen, so much different from the bright chirping of the Disney movies that were our regular fare. I give my mother credit for taking us.

I fell in love with Gregory Peck’s Atticus Finch. I wanted him for a father, a friend.  I wanted to BE him. I didn’t know how a person could learn to have that true sense of right, but it suddenly explained everything in life to me. Cross color barriers; cross class barriers;  cross the street and take on the rabid dog. Just do it.

to kill a mockingbirdAfter the movie, I sought out the book. I found an even more complex story–the neighbor  addicted to painkillers and the heightened racism. Boo Radley reminded me of the neighbor up my own road–an old lady who frightened me. As I read, Atticus came to life even more. The adventurers, Scout and Gem and Dill were about my age. When Scout was caught up in her chicken-wire costume, her fear was my fear. And the lessons crystallized for me.

My hometown was a classic small northern Connecticut village with a steepled white church on Main Street, a colonnaded Inn and old colonials that gave way to pocket-sized farms. We had no black neighbors. Migrant workers arrived each summer to pick tobacco and potatoes, the main crops. They lived in shed dorms along the edges of the farms where they worked. By September they were gone, never seen by most of us unless we took a summer job picking tobacco. Even then, the town kids were segregated from the workers. The homogeneity went to religion as well. Catholics had a church on the mill side of town. There was only one Jewish family and if they worshiped, it was in another town.

“To Kill a Mockingbird” opened my eyes in a way that would not have been possible at that time, in that place I called home.  And as I’m waiting for the second inauguration ceremonies for Barack Obama, on the day we are celebrating Dr. Martin Luther King, Jr., I’ve been thinking about Harper Lee’s brave book and the movie that released 50 years ago.

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Color Me Green

It’s official. The 2013 Pantone color of the year is ….  17-5641.  Or to those who are more visual … emerald. Pantone, the folks who brought us a way to organize our crayon boxes and make designers happy, ecstatically describes 17-5641:

“Lively. Radiant. Lush… A color of elegance and beauty
that enhances our sense of well-being, balance and harmony.”

I’m thinking of the Emerald City. The Emerald Isle. Green eggs and ham. The color of the field at Fenway Park. Kermit. Spring leaves, just unfurled. Priceless facets in the jeweler’s case.

PMS, Pantone Matching System. Nothing to do with the other PMS, though both can lead to colorful comments.

In my checkered past I studied oil painting. It was a brief fling in my teenaged years. The smell of turpentine can send me right back to Mrs. Stiles’ sun porch and the row of easels. She was a local artist in our small town, with the patience of a saint. Once a week after school, I’d mix it up with tubes of paint, brushes and palette.

Then later when I found myself between jobs, I filled in at my friend Amy Graver’s  fabulous design studio, Elements, as studio manager. I had been managing creative projects for clients for years and hiring designers. I owned a PMS guide and loved flipping through the colors helping a client find the right hue for their logo. At Elements, it was fun being immersed full-time in color. It was serious business. We even chose Gerbera daisies for the conference table vases in a particular shade of red.

I’m really partial to the named colors. Like emerald. Or azure. Sienna brown. Burnt umber.  Cerulean. Citron. I can picture it. And when I’m writing and the right word to describe the red that flames across the sky at sunset, it’s scarlet. Not a number.

Pantone understands that as well. They do pair names with the numbers, but that’s a more recent advancement. The 2012 color of the year was tangerine tango; 20.09 was mimosa.

Product_images_mugBut I’m happy for 17-5641. Color of the year. Coming soon to a scarf, shoe, book, paint near you.

Of course, Pantone is happy to sell you products in 17-5641 as well!

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Wings Over Me

I made myself a promise last year. That promise now hovers over my heart and across my shoulder.

My first tattoo had marked a milestone birthday. I’d admired tattoo art but had been reluctant to venture into ink. If I was going to make a permanent change, I wanted it to be a part of my story, not just a whim or worse yet, something to prove that I was cool (or stupid, depending on your p.o.v.).

I decided that my story would be far simpler than Shelley Jackson’s Skin Project, a 2,095 word epic told a word at a time in tattoos on volunteers. My daughter has one of Jackson’s words on her wrist. Nor would my story be an all-encompassing graphic like the Japanese Irezumi, full of mythical beasts that portray a person’s goals and desires in life.

I chose a triquetra, a Celtic knot representing the threefold nature of life: birth, life and rebirth.  For me, it was also a link to my Irish roots and a symbol of the three women who make up my family–my two daughters and myself. That tattoo took about 40 uncomfortable minutes.  I thought that was pretty much my limit. The bite of the needle is forgotten, but I recall that I was eager to be done.

For this round, I picked Ram of Fat Ram’s Pumpkin Tattoo in Jamaica Plain. As I booked the initial consult with him in November, I thought about what the story would be.  In the Irezumi style, I wanted my tattoo to represent my future and a more mindful life. An image strong, protective.

This week I sat for an hour and a half, while Ram inked a snowy owl onto my left shoulder, hovering above my heart. Together we had pored over more than a half-dozen drawings he had made.  He would have liked to sketch the broad wingspan all across my back but we compromised.

When the needle ran across the top of my shoulder, close to bone, the pain was searing. Mostly, it was a rhythm of talk and tattoo with occasional breaks for me to take a look at the progress. As I drove the 30 miles home, light snow flew like tiny feathers into the windscreen of my Mini Cooper. Despite the snow, the night was shining clear, the landscape appeared etched on glass. A soft burn radiated from the tattoo, a sunburn feeling on a December night. I imagined I could also feel the brush of feathers across my back.

Owl Tattoo

Hours later when I peeled the protective plastic film off my reddened skin, the adrenaline flowed away leaving me with the deed done. The bright yellow eyes are watchful. Its talons intertwine with the triquetra. Ram used soft grey ink with white highlights for a watercolor  effect. The owl will travel with me forever, and that’s a good thing.

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