Today is my birth day. Not that birthday. I have decided to simplify and right-size my life and document it as I go. Starting today, June 1st. Today also is the birthday of Marilyn Monroe. My story starts with a color.
The official color of the day, according to Pantone and Colorstrology by Michelle Bernhardt is Daffodil. I like that a lot. See my sun? It’s shining on this new day, golden yellow, hopeful. Like a daffodil, if daffodils grew in ninety degree heat.

My husband and I live in a typical house with 3 bedrooms, 2 1/2 baths. Eight rooms total. It’s not a McMansion but with children grown and moved along, if feels big. To keep things going, we have lawn-guy and a house cleaner named Dave and a dog walker named Sam (actually Cassandra). We also have a landscaper who occasionally moves large things like trees and rocks around. We do the snow ourselves, with a super Honda snow blower that can blast a frosty stream about 30 feet. Today, with ninety plus degrees, the snow blower sounds good. In February, that’s not what I think.
We have both passed 60. At some point, we will be baby boomers who are looking at retirement and saying “huh?” Trust me, Woodstock did not prepare anyone for retirement.
Not Small At All is dedicated to getting to that place in life that is just the right size. Navigating to a smaller house is the task. And the metaphor. I expect the journey of the next year will be like a carnival ride: up, down, around. Sometimes you get nauseous, but it’s always exciting. I plan to blog as often to daily as humanly possible. IF I have a chance to go see Angkor Wat, then I’ll go and I won’t blog that day.
I don’t expect to go to Cambodia. I do expect to be consumed by the work at hand. I invite you to come along for the ride. If you have been thinking about your own life, longing for less instead of more, Not Small At All is for you. I plan to make mistakes and be able to learn and move on. In six months, we hope to have bought our next house. In twelve, we plan to have realigned our lives so that we can enjoy the days more fully, smile often, play more. Can we do it?
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That’s my big idea …. and it is NOT Small at all.
Betsy Fitzgerald is an award-winning author who lives and writes in Groton, Massachusetts. Her first Phred Rivers novel, October Run, is available from 







Today, I am as likely to do my own nails–it’s a life got too busy sort of thing. I play with other colors. When black polish hit as a trend, I went for that as well. There’s a certain don’t mess with me attitude that goes with ebony tips. And you can change at whim with a splash of remover.

Lastly, I know Brooklyn as part of family lore. My grandfather, Willard Harold Fitzgerald (Harry) was a young graduate in civil engineering from Columbia University when he worked on the Manhattan Bridge that rises with impunity at the end of Flatbush Avenue, then lands on lower Manhattan through a collanaded limestone arch. He was a supervisor on the construction when he took on a challenge from one of the crew. They challenged the young Harry to hoist iron. He injured himself, permanently wrenching muscles in his back. From then on he walked with a twisted frame. I’ve always thought of the Manhattan Bridge as “our bridge.” And less famous than its sister Brooklyn Bridge, the Manhattan is now the gateway to my daughter’s neighborhood.
The sun is shining on this March day. We’ll walk. And walk. I may stop in at the independent 
Dog Rescue. Human redemption. Journalism. 
After the movie, I sought out the book. I found an even more complex story–the neighbor addicted to painkillers and the heightened racism. Boo Radley reminded me of the neighbor up my own road–an old lady who frightened me. As I read, Atticus came to life even more. The adventurers, Scout and Gem and Dill were about my age. When Scout was caught up in her chicken-wire costume, her fear was my fear. And the lessons crystallized for me.